Halloween

I don't normally go as "real" people. Normally I'm more of a devil, peacock, fairy type of girl as far as costumes go... not this year.

We will be Sara Failin' and Balack Obama. We are going purely to offend. It doesn't matter whose paths we cross... they are likely to be pissed in some fashion or another. It will be racist and retarded. A part of me is even a tiny bit appalled at the idea. But come on - how often do you have something this fantastic to parody? Even 4 years from now - I doubt the political fodder will be quite so fantastic.

Also- I have 7 business suits that I don't even get to wear anymore. This will be my chance! Also it was cheap. $10 for glasses and$6 on make-up...

We're a class act.

I'm done sugar coating this shit.

My job is downright terrible. The owner of the company is a hyper-conservative politically motivated ass who cares more about Sarah Palin than he does his own company. One of the VPs thinks their shit doesn't stink, and is soooo incredibly wrong. This person is a hypocritical, slightly psychotic, menopausal, crazy, forgetful ass. There are people in this company getting away with murder and it's truly running the company into the ground. The moral here sucks. Everyday is a fucking Monday. I honestly don't even enjoy my weekends to their fullest extent because all I can think about is the fact that the real Monday is on its way. My immediate supervisor and I are being babysat more than ever here lately - after our so-called promotions. It's rediculous! To top it off - they are making me go behind another supervisor's back and verify all decisions he makes - like he's a baby. Well fuck that - tomorrow I'm coming in screaming and someone had better be willing to listen because there are all kinds of things I could cause problems with here if they don't.

This is why I NEVER publish the company I work for!

I'm lucky... right?

I know that with the way the economy is these days, I should just be happy with the job I have. I'm not though. I haven't been impressed with much here lately. Their disregard for employees and their bank accounts is frustrating. The lack of communication is rediculous. Their inability to keep a promise is disgusting.

I was given a promotion a while ago (yay, right?). Too bad it didn't amount to anything other than different words in my signature line. No raise, no changes in my responsibilities, no new office - nothing other than different words. I know times are tight and every one is watching their checkbooks - but don't make promises that you won't even pretend to keep... or acknowledge.

It's a challenge to come to work these days. It's an even bigger challenge to have a decent attitude when I get home from work. I hate this. I hate it even more because I know that I'm lucky right now. I am however, applying for a position in Cheyenne. With any luck it will be fantastic, the pay will be phenomenal, and they will offer it to me. I know - dreams, right?

Nothing like a dreary day...

With a whole bunch of yellow, orange, and red contrasting the sky. It's beautiful here. It really is. I should take pictures.

Definitely.

Judgemental

That's me. I've realized lately that I'm rediculously judgemental - mostly just in my head. I really need to knock it off. I was in my yoga class the other day judging people. Yoga - seriously - the place I should honestly be the least judgemental. I don't know why I was judging them either, but I guess that isn't the point. The point is, I realized I was doing it and stopped. Each of these people has their own reasons for being there, doing what they do, and dressing how they dress.

Who am I to judge?

So I will consciously not judge people from this point forward. I know that sometimes I'll slip in and start thinking something completely irrational about someone I don't even know, but hopefully I'll stop and realize what I'm doing. Because really - I'm no better than anyone else. We all exist and do our own things and have our own reasons for everything, and until I know the whys, I'll refrain from judgement.

And hopefully after the whys are answered... I'll still refrain from judging....

Sum fun...

Had a pretty decent weekend... scratch that... a pretty awesome Saturday and a pretty terrible Sunday (mostly due to the awesome Saturday).

We went to the Springs to visit my grampa and my aunt, and while we were at it, we got to visit my other aunt and uncle and cousins... but most exciting... we got to see Jordyn for a few minutes! The newest Norvell... poor girl - she's gonna have some thick skin when all is said and done!

After the 13 hours in the car and in the Springs, we went out for Nick's cousin's birthday and had a freaking blast. This would be why I wanted to die all day Sunday - and why I couldn't sleep last night... oh well - It was worth it. Though I can't say that I'll be doing it again. I'll hopefully have a picture or two to contribute of the evening's fun, but we now have too many cameras from which to download pictures and I only have one camera's worth here today!

This economy crap sucks. I know it's taking serious tolls on people's lives, but for the first time today - it truly, directly affected me. I was given a promotion a few weeks ago. I deserved and earned this, and it was very exciting. It involved restructuring of our department. A new office (with windows to the outside world) and new responsibilities for me, and we'd hire a new person to take on much of the administrative stuff I've been dealing with that takes up a lot of time.

Not to mention that today was the first day I've done something that didn't require any revisions at all - it was great as it was and garnered full approval of both of my supervisors and the president. My balloon inflated, only to be popped this afternoon.

They have decided not to hire someone new to take on the administrative tasks. This essentially means that I will be doing the same stuff under a different name. Same for my boss. They simply gave us the hope of change, but aren't going to follow through. I'm positive that they did this simply to keep the two of us here. Well it worked. The economy has crashed and there are no opportunities out there for either of us. The really terrible part: my boss actually turned down another position to keep her job here because of all the changes they promised. Now there aren't any opportunities available for either of us and we're stuck.

This is awesome. I suppose on the bright side: none of my money is in any of the banks that have failed (except a small loan through AIG, and oh yeah, our car insurance), Nick and I both work in good, solid, stable industries that are unaffected by the economy (yeah - I could barely type that with a straight face... construction... psha...), we have our health (damn this bronchitis), we don't own a home with an ARM loan (this one's legit... nothing bad about that!), and we're totally in love with each other. I suppose it really isn't that bad after all.