Tis been a few weeks...

... For that I refuse to apologize!

• I still like bullets - get used to it - but the next one is just gonna be one big oversized - runon sentance/paragraph!
• For Christmas I got the following outstandingly awesome items: A fuschia automatic paintball gun with so many options it's rediculous - including 3 shot bursts, 6 shot bursts, 12 shot per second mode, 6 shot per second mode, semi-automatic mode, or a fully-automatic mode... this of course we had to test on Christmas morning in the front yard for as long as we could without having the cops called on us in our quiet neighborhood...; I also got an ass-kicking snowboarding coat with so many pockets that I actually lost $20 in it the first day I got it - it has a powder skirt and a goggle pocket and an mp3 player pocket and a $ pocket (which incidentally isn't where I put the $20 I lost - that'll teach me!) and thirty other pockets in which I currently have inhalers, candy, awesome flashlights/laser pointers (which I also got for Christmas!; I got tons of neato kitcheny stuff that I'll be trying my best to keep the boys' hands off... to keep nice for a while; and I got a super cool game for the PS2 which I'm having a very hard time getting to play because the boys got a Wii, which is also super duper cool and we've been playing tons and tons; $$$ which is just cool, because who doesn't need a little money?!; Best of all - we got to spend time with all of our families... all moms and all dads! There weren't any major explosions... there was lots of food and lots of folly, and lots of bowling to be had on the TV!

Love and hugs this new year! Everyone have fun with your ice luges this evening - I know I will!

How not to make the icy, snowy commute any more pleasant:

Alas, more bullets...

• Pull out in front of me, when it is painfully obvious that you do not have enough room to make the turn without having me and all the poor drivers behind me and in the other lanes have to hit the brakes... or gently depress the brakes as it were in this shitty weather we're having


• Honk at me annoyingly at the stoplight when I don't immediately take off when it turns green because my tires are spinning because I'm driving on ice covered in packed snow with the slightest hint of slushy goodness


• Definitely don't use your four wheel drive if you have it - it's so much fun to dodge you as you slide sideways across three lanes of traffic and spin your back tires in your big shiny SUV

Clearly I'm a fan of bullets

• Both the kind that go boom
• And the kind that come before miscellaneous thoughts in a pathetic effort to organize them
• I used to like daylight savings time... now not so much - now it just ruins the time I used to have to take the dogs to the dog park after work or play with them in the out doors
• I'm annoyed with a lot of things right now... I need this constant state of annoyance to leave... really I do.
• It's affecting lots of stuff
• The tile guy (my new best friend - see post below if you don't understand), left my front door unlocked again
• I need to get renters' insurance
• I of all people should know this... remember when I had to throw all my panties away?! well I do...
• I miss my boyfriend
• I just realized that at my office I had to list 3 emergency contacts, and all three are most likely in Casper... awesome... I'm gonna die and no one will be here to say goodbye....
• Morbid, I know...
• My throat feels a little weird... I'm hoping I'm not getting sick - Perhaps I should drink some tea and eat some soup and sit in front of Grey's Anatomy tonight... I think I'll make chili and do just that!
• Today's better than yesterday
• This is a good thing
• Yesterday and the day before kinda sucked my ass
• The bathroom is done and I'll be able to shower tonight - Wahoo - No more douche bags in my house for a while!
• In my very own shower!
• The bullets still don't add coherence...
• That is all.

Latest List of How to Become My Bestfriend:

• Destroy my bathroom, but don't come by the day you're supposed to
• Definetly don't come by the next day to do anymore work
• Or the next
• Or the next
• When we call our landlord to ask what's up, her response should definitely be, WTF, I thought they were supposed to be done today?!
• Then when she calls the window guy to ask WTF, he should definitely respond with WTF, I thought the tile guy was suppose to be done today?!
• Tile guy might come today
• Maybe
• Then maybe he'll come Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday of next week to totally fuck my existence.... and my roommate's
• And Icing on my cake of delight... both freaking copiers at work are broken and the copier repair guys hate me.....

Turkey Lurkey Giggle...

Food... Oh Gawd... Food

Today for lunch I'm eating the last of the turkey via the soup I made on Sunday to relieve the neverending Thanksgiving leftover nightmare that was/still is our fridge. I imagine that for dinner I'll be eating smashed tater/green bean casserole/gravy/cheesy goo surprise again... really though... it's not that bad. I mean... seriously... too much food... never a bad thing.

I just finished the last of the chocolate sex bars last night... which is definitely for the best, because as I have so very sadly discovered, one of the very, very bad side effects of the most wonderful migraine medication ever is that it makes chocolate cause very bad tummy boiling. The good news out of that is that I will likely eat less chocolate during the holiday season. The bad news is that I will not eat no chocolate, therefore I will undoubtedly have some serious tummy boiling. I ate half a bottle of tums just for turkey day food stuffs... what's gonna happen for all the other food stuffs? GAWD I'm gonna die!

Things to do to piss me off:

• Take my keys from me like I'm a freaking idiot.
• Answer me condescendingly when I ask you a completely logical question (Should I leave the car running?), especially considering I'm handing you the keys to the most expensive thing I don't even own, and won't even own for years to come...
• Answer the question one way then do something else... for instance (Yes, then reach inside and turn it off as soon as I've gotten out.... that's why I asked the fucking question you asshat!)
• Tell me you'll provide a courtesy shuttle with no problem (when I call ahead) and that getting me back to work before my lunch hour is over will be no problem, butdefinitely don't have a courtesy shuttle available, and keep telling me that it'll be here when it gets here when I ask... and that I should just be patient.
• You should also definitely try to convince me to have my brakes checked and realigned as well... especially since the car only has 5000 miles on it. And when I tell you that I can handle that myself because I have a mechanic in the family, you should tell me that yours are better and more certified.... (I really like the look on your face when I tell you that mine is a certified automotive instructor - so suck it asshat!)
• Also, you should definitely not apologize for the inconvenience, because I'm definitely going to tell one of your biggest customers all about this experience... and that will actually be the highlight of this experience for me.

Gonna Get Fatty...

• 2 Deep Fried Turkeys
• Double Batch of Cheesey Goey Dip
• Deviled Eggs
• Lil Smokies
• Cranberry Sauce
• Sweet Potatoes
• Frog Eye Salad
• Mashed Potatoes
• 2 Punkin Pies
• Chocolate Sex Bars
• Veggies
• Green Bean Casserole
• Cheese Ball and Crackers
• Beers

I know it's bad luck... but so what!?

It's now been 6 days without a migraine... perhaps the new drug is taking hold of my system very quickly? Perhaps it's all in my head (yes you may groan now). Whatever it is... I'm freaking thrilled. I'd like it to hold out through next week. I really need it to last a bit longer....

Maybe I can make it a whole week! How sad is it that I am this excited about a week without migraines?! That should be a normal part of life... part of existence. Oh well. I'll take what I can get.

Perhaps I'll write more later. Maybe I'll even add pictures tonight. I make no promises though. I'm not good at keeping them.

So Yay for Insurance...

I had me a little chitsy chatsy with my insurance company last night. It turns out that they will indeed cover my drugsy wugsy... this is good!

I'm done with the baby talk now. I do have to meet a $150 deductible then it's a $60 a month co-pay, so the first month will be $210... which does indeed hurt.... but then I can send them in to the mail order prescription plan and get three months for the price of 2 so the it will only be $40 a month... so not bad when all is said and done. My insurance plan really isn't that great, but it's better than nothing. Without insurance, the drugs would cost me what I pay in rent a month! So that's a bonus.

Here's to 5 days in a row without a migraine! And here's to great insurance help representatives on the other end of the phone who also told me that my birthcontrol would be dirt cheap if I sent it in through the mail order thing!

Sometimes... being a girl sucks!

Like today - and approximately 5 days of every month.

I started reading again last night. I seem to have forgotten how since I finished Harry Potter 7. I think that I figured nothing could live up to that book, so I didn't even try. Last night in an effort to assuage boredom and to broaden my mind, I started reading "Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister" by somebody Maguire.... I think.

So far I think I'll like it. It has taken a rather weird twist on the Cinderella story... and as I like weird twists on classics (read: "Lamb: the Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal")... I figure it will at least entertain me a bit. I still can't handle anything too intelligent as far as reading goes... I think my brain's still on strike from college (probably not a good time for me to consider getting my masters...).

..................

Our house is in shambles right now, and one roommate is absolutely displeased with the entire situation. He's very angry about all of it. The downstairs bathroom (his and other roommate's) is mostly missing a wall in the shower.... The good news: the new window has been installed. The bad news: no showering in that bathroom for probably a week. The even badder (yes I just used the word badder, which likely isn't a word, but remember my brain is still on strike) news: this particular roommate takes 2 showers a day. Since Nick and his brother are out of town most of the week, this isn't a problem... yet. It will be by Thursday night. By Thursday night... it will be hell. Four people - one shower - 5 showers a day... boo.

So that's what I have to look forward to. I'm considering going to Casper this weekend for my dad's birthday... and also to avoid the shower issues. I haven't seen my parents in a while, so that would be nice, and it would also be nice to say happy birthday to him on his birthday. He'll be 52. That's weird to me. My parents seem so much younger than they are. It's crazy growing up.

And now I'm done.

I only got 4 - How lame is that?

So Halloween is my most favoritest holiday ever. Something about too much make-up, obscene amounts of candy, and dressing like a fool... anyway. It is my favorite. Nick and I went to a costume party at a Synagogue in Denver this weekend, so I got my fill... It was a wind-down party from Burning Man, so there were some fantastically disturbing costumes. There was some nudity, and definitely a few people who needed a bath or two. That's neither here nor there though.

Nick and I went to the ballet before the party, so we dressed up and then wore fancy masks to the party. It was a swell time. I'll post pictures - maybe.

Last night I was sooooo excited for trick-or-treaters. We live in a family-friendly neighborhood near the mall, so I totally expected to have at least some cute kiddos in rediculous costumes. Nope. I had 4 - all in their teens. I wanted cute little kids. I wanted the shy teddy bears and princesses... I got two girls in their school colors and two girls dressed as witches. Needless to say, I was bummed. A big frowny face for this year's Halloween.

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It's been a rough week... so here are 50 things about me you may or may not know or care about.

1. My favorite food is chocolate. Almost all kinds of chocolate all the time. White chocolate, however, is crappy. I despise white chocolate.
2. For the first time in my life - I make my bed. Most of the time. 6 out of 7 days on average. Because I want to, not because I have to. It's wierd really.
3. I have had tension headaches for nearly every day of the past 4 weeks. This could have something to do with the fact that I don't necessarily love my job.
4. I love when we have fun weekends... it makes it that much easier to be productive!
5. As of recently, I have been to 5 funerals in 2 years and lost one other person I was very close to. It sucks.
6. I go through spurts of health where I'll eat lots of fruit and veggies and not a lot of calories. I'll drink lots of water and work out.... I never really feel any better during those times than when I'm eating junk food and being lazy...
7. I love dogs... but only medium sized ones - ok all fo them, but the only ones I want are the medium sized ones. Every time I go to the dog park I want to take all of them home. But I've also decided that I can never have more dogs than I have hands because I need to be able to hang on to them from time to time.
8. I hate bills. I know we all do, but I really hate them.
9. I love laundry... not all of it, just putting it into the washer and dryer... I have no idea why I do, but I do... I do not enjoy folding or putting it away however.
10. It totally deflates my sails when I'm micro-managed. When I'm asked to do something, I do it. I actually almost cried today because of it.
11. I hate onion texture.
12. I don't mind onion flavor.
13. I cook with onions sometimes, but I pick them out before I eat it.
14. I used to swallow onions whole because I had to eat everything on my plate. I attribute my ability to swallow big pills and lots of them to this.
15. I adore the little sticky post-it note flags. They gave me some at work, and I love when I have the opportunity to use them.
16. I enjoyed cleaning the smarm off the mirrors and mopping floors and scrubbing toilets at the dance studio more than I enjoy my current job.
17. I love the way my dog (Jilly Beans) hugs me when she's longing for more attention.
18. I love the way my dog (Ody B) jumps in and sits on Jilly Beans when he's longing for attention.
19. I love remembering good times. If I'm in a bad mood, I'll sit and think about fun stuff that's happened to me... it's swell.
20. Standard transmissions rock my world... I love them so much. There's something about having that control that makes me happy.
21. I just bought my first ever shiny new car. It has a standard transmission.
22. I waste more paper at my current job... than any job I've ever had. I hate being wasteful. Hate.
23. I loved my job in Casper at the Chamber. I just didn't love Casper
24. I love Fort Collins... I just don't love my job.
25. I moved to Fort Collins to be with the boy... As fate would have it... the boy has been working in Casper more than in Fort Collins.
26. I was offered a job in Casper the other day. The pay would be good. And it's where my boy works... but no. I'm staying here.
27. I've found that drinking half a gallon of juice a day reduces my hunger a lot. I think I'll continue.
28. I realized that I'm pretty lonely in Ft. Collins. I like the city a lot and I absolutely love living with Nick, but I don't have a big friend base.
29. If I'd stayed in Casper the situation would be the same. My good friend who lived there just moved to Virginia for school and to be with her dad. So at least this way, I get the boy most of the week.
30. I may not have a lot of really good friends and now none of them live near me, but the friends I do have, are the greatest.
31. Often, I feel like an underacheiver. I haven't really acomplished much with my life, but then again... what is life all about?
32. Nick and I have the most gorgeous sunrises and sunsets in our bedroom... all taken by the two of us. They make me smile.
33. We watched a lot of movies this weekend. A lot a lot. I actually probably slept through them all really.
34. I've been having migraines like nobody's business.
35. I scored over 200 at Scrabble the other day. It was awesome. Not even cheating... all words were real and in English. I never win or even earn more than 100 at Scrabble. It was awesome.
36. I've recently started drinking mimosas with cranberry juice and red champagne... We've heard a couple of different names for them, but damn they are fan freaking tastic!
37. You should, however, not mix the above stated drink with Frappuccinos and chili. Talk about the most painful burning tummy ache ever!
38. I love snuggling. Love it. Since Nick's out of town a lot, the doggies get to snuggle me on the couch during tv-time. But they have to be invited first.
39. I've learned so much about myself in the past couple years. I hope I continue to learn this much on a daily basis. I like knowing that I've grown. I no longer jump to immediate conclusions and I've learned to breathe. Somtimes I still lose my mind a little, but not that bad considering.
40. The other night I was trumped by South Park. Damn you Trey Parker and Matt Stone. Don't you realize that I don't see my boyfriend very often, and your stupid show doesn't help matters.
41. I'm not very impressed by Grey's Anatomy this year. So far it isn't living up to any of the standards I've set for it.
42. I've hit some snags with some seemingly close friends recently... by recently, I mean in the past couple years. One thing I've realized is that while I know I'm better off without them directly in my life, I still want them to thrive and to be happy. I think that makes me human.
43. I'm very much so in love with Nick, and he is with me also. There is no doubt. That's nice. I really, really, really love it. Really.
44. I finally sold the neon! Woo Hoo! Everyone shout for joy for me. I'm officially not a used car salesman anymore.
45. I sold it for less than I wanted, but that's ok because it's not mine anymore.
46. I'm not the only one in the house who vacuums. I'm mostly the only one who vacuums, but not the only.
47. I get to go to a Black Tie Optional event in November. I'm super excited, because how often do people like me get to dress that formally!?
48. The event is for an awards banquet where my company stands an excellent chance of winning the award... I helped with the submittal, so that makes me that much more excited!
49. I enjoy how quiet the house is without people in it all week, but I don't enjoy the loneliness. Irony.
50. My insurance deductible is $3000. Do you know how hard that is to meet? This is why I will not be having an MRI done on either my head or my back. I cannot afford to pay for it in its entirity. How sad is it that I have insurance and still can't afford to have my back or my migraines taken care of?!

Who'd have thought family could be so much fun!?

We went out this weekend with Nick's cousins, and it was the most fun I've had in a long time. We wound up in the middle of a pirate themed rugby pub crawl. It was a hysterically good time. Not to mention that I adore his cousins and we could have had a good time without the drunken pirate festivities. They are soooo much fun! The three of us girls wound up in purple (the same shade) completely by accident, and the more drunk the boys got the funnier they thought it was! It was a swell time. We've also decided that you don't pee at Tony's bar. They require that the bathroom doors are left open because a few months ago there was a girl who was raped in one of them. We of course had to pee, so we went together and we went in fighting. Screaming and shoving... it was pretty swell... We have officially enstated the you must pee where ever you are before we go to Tony's rule, so we can avoid the fist fights with boys at Tony's. You'd think that maybe we should just not go to Tony's, but he has cheap drinks and it's usually a lot of fun.

Nick and I went shopping that morning in Broomfield, and that was fun. I love getting good deals on clothes! Also the Flatiron Mall is pretty cool... mostly because my company built it. And, well it's actually a really pretty mall. I am now broker because of it. But I have shiny new shirts and a fantastic new bra! Seriously - if you are female and haven't tried Victoria's Secret's (is that how that grammar works) Secret Embrace bra, you should go sell some plasma and buy one... they are totally worth it! Now I just need some sort of an endorsement deal because of all that free promotion...

That'd be cool.

So I've been battling migraines like a bad ass lately... but my bad assedness is officially having its own ass kicked. I had 3 weeks in a row where I only had 2 or 3 migraine free days... I think that the only reason the Sam's Club version of Advil survives is because of me and my migraines. I can't afford the expenisve shiny migraine meds that the doc in Casper prescribed, so I don't take them very often, and I've found lately, that even if I take them, they do me no good.... Other than to make me kinda cranky and out of it for a few hours anyway.... So I went to General Care here in FC, and they gave me a prescription for Fiorocet. Well that's super, except that I didn't find out that it's a narcotic derivitave of some sort until I took it while I was at work and with in 30 minutes went from mildly incapable to completely retarded. The computer screen seemed to be mocking me, and I couldn't fully function. I built cardboard boxes for 4 hours that day and I was barely capable of doing that.

So I'm gonna try to go to a doctor doctor who can assess the situation more thoroughly and possibly put me on something else to make it all stop. Hopefully this something else costs less than rent. I have done some research on some of the drugs available, and that shiny new one looks promising, but it also costs more than rent every month, and my insurance refuses to cover it because of the cost. Maybe they'll just decide that I need more vitamin C.

That'd be cool.

I should know better than to try to be an adult sometimes.

I sold my car yesterday. Good, right?! Yeah, well not so much when the guy who bought it turns out to work for a car dealership. And not so much when he leaves you messages with questions about the title. Questions about the title are NEVER good.

Also, I've come up with yet another reason that I shouldn't have kids: Our dogs have taken up professional barking again. They, however, only practice for our neighbors when we aren't home. The neighbors seem less appreciative than one would hope (I've been in their shoes, and I completely understand their lack of appreciation for our yappy little shits - really - I love them). We thought we had this cured. We went through this right after we moved in. Well they've taken up the sport again, and we've resorted to high dollar shock collars.

I whap them on the nose when they are bad. I strap zappy devices to their necks when they bark. I throw cans full of pennies when they aren't listening... I don't think I could do any of that with a child. I believe I'd be serving time at this point.

Fairweather fan.

The Rockies are officially going to the World Series.

I hate baseball - almost as boring as watching golf.

I won't even watch the games.

Up until 2 weeks ago I didn't even really realize it was baseball season.

Yet I'm super excited about this. It's probably because I live in Colorado now. If I were still in that other square state, I wouldn't give a shit I'm sure. It's weird being intrigued by sports. I've never been a huge fan of any sports - unless they are violently entertaining like hockey.

Today is purple day in Colorado and I'm wearing red, so I suppose I'm not even a true fair weather fan.

Freshish start...

In an effort to help maintain my sanity and to connect to the internets - I've decided to start a new blog. I've long been a member of Xanga... but I'm thinking that maybe I need something less juvenile and more oriented toward who I am now. I used that to whine a lot and moan about how rough I had it... well... perhaps now I won't be quite so whiny... not quite.